o hai2u, neglected blog.

i always feel very uncomfortable when semi-strangers, like my teachers, express concern about me.

but in other news, i appreciate my mother if only for the fact that she knows how to keep a house absolutely spotless. ahhh, clean kitchen and bathrooms.

i am dipping my toes into new-to-me music, like frog eyes and my bloody valentine and some otc tracks that i've never paid much attention to before. it's refreshing.

it is past 1 am and i can't sleep because god knows why

i looked up how to withdraw from school for a semester and then re-enroll and it looks very easy so maybe i will actually be gone for all of next year. i think a break from school would do me a world of good, especially since i'll be traveling with aria (for free!) instead

the inside of my left ear itches and my back hurts and my lymph nodes are swollen and my legs are unshaven and my body is basically falling apart but i think i've finally gotten it all sorted out and under control

this hot weather needs to stop RIGHT NOW.


te 'po dour ha me 'mo gwin!
te 'zo sot ha me 'zo fin!

this morning i was so clumsybumbly and irritable and then i went to the park and my whole day smoothed out. autumn does wonders for my mental state.

i need to start thinking about halloween costumes. and then christmas sweaters and apple cider and a wreath for the front door and nat king cole and cutting down a christmas tree and gingerbread men and eggnog and ornaments for the tree and the smell of pine and the smell of crisp winter mornings and the smell of spices and the smell of my favorite time of year.